From the ashes of pain, I found a path to happiness.
I felt I could learn to use intuition, just like I could learn any other skill. Since I learned how to play piano, although I had no natural talent for it, then I could also learn how to use my intuition. Everyone is born with intuitive gifts. It was a matter of understanding how my own worked.
I knew I had it. I knew I had precognition giving me nudges to do something that would make my life easier. So many times, I talked myself out of following it. I would get intuitive hits so randomly and so quietly that I would brush them aside as my imagination or just ignore them entirely.
For example, I would get a thought floating in that I should get some butter as I walked the aisle of the market, only to talk myself out of it. Only to get home and realize I needed more butter for a recipe. Other times I would get a feeling. Such as, when doing some mindless tasks, I would get a feeling that I should call a friend just to brush it aside. Yet, finding out later that they were thinking of me at that time.
How could I grow my intuition, trust it every time, and get even more intuitive hits to improve my life?
I was determined to figure it out.
During that time, my life had profoundly fallen apart in all areas. My job, my marriage, and my health were gone. I needed to rebuild my life from scratch. Until that point, I had been doing all the things “right”. I was doing what I thought would bring me happiness, but even before I lost it all, I knew I was not happy.
Doing the “right thing” was not right for me. Now I needed to do what I wanted. But what was that? I had lost my sense of self to the point of not even knowing what I wanted. So, I turned to my inner world. I needed to rebuild everything about my life, but this time it would be on my terms and from the inside out.
I was already spiritually curious, so that was a good place to start. All the books I had read on spirituality said everyone is intuitive, but none of those books explained how to use it. There was no guidebook on living on one’s intuition. I knew of no book that got into details on how to grow it, what it was really like, or even what it really is. That didn’t matter. I was determined with all the will I could muster to figure it out for myself.
I experimented.
My very first step was to make a deal with myself. I decided I would follow every intuitive ‘hit’ I got, no matter what. If I suddenly felt the need to buy milk at the store, I would do it. If I got the nudge to call someone out of the blue, I did it. If I had the urge to leave early for work, I did it. And so on.
The problem was that with every hit, nudge and urge came the doubts. Doubts are powerful things. Having doubts is human and important to discern and determine the truth of one’s experiences. Yet, through this experiment, I got to know how toxic they could be and how dominant they were in my consciousness.
With every nudge to pick up something unplanned from the store came a barrage of negativity as my inner dialogue. It went something like this:
“What do you need that for?” “There is plenty of that at home.” “Do you think you are psychic or something?” “This is just bullshit.”
This was so common in the weeks early on that it was like a bully was living in my head. My doubts were so very loud, far louder than the soft, quiet, and subtle energy of the intuitive nudges that it was almost tormenting to do this practice. But as I have previously mentioned, I was determined.
What I first found out was that I was only right about fifty percent of the time. It was not as accurate as I thought it should be. So, I studied the differences between what it felt like when it was right and when it was wrong. The energy of the correct hits, nudges, and urges were so quiet as to be missed at times. When it was my intuition, there were subtle whispers in the back of my mind or gentle feelings. The hits could also come as a fleeting image or a whisper of a word. They came when I had a quiet mind. They came when I was receptive and my mind was relaxed, like when I was driving, showering, wandering the aisle of the grocery store, doing dishes, and so on. Even reading or watching a show was a place where I could get a hit.
When my mind was active, anxious, or busy with drama, the ‘hits’ I got were from that chaotic place. Those hits were loud. They had an energy of urgency about them. “Do this now” kind of thing. Like an infomercial telling you to buy now or they will be out of stock! Call that friend and hurry! Leave now or else! The funny thing about those hits was that they never had doubts attached to them. They were powerful and demanding without a hint of thinking they might be ‘bullshit’. Very interesting. Another interesting thing about those hits is that they were always wrong.
Those urgent feelings and thoughts were never in doubt, but always wrong.
This gave me the beginnings of a deeper understanding of how to work with and grow my intuition. The loud and demanding voice was the voice of my wounded ego. Fearful of losing dominance, my ego was creating doubts with no merit and giving me false ‘intuitive’ hits. What came from the chaotic mind were guesses and assumptions based on my fears, worries, and anxieties.
The only way to address this was to face my fears. At first, this meant standing up to the bully. I fought back by arguing with the negative programming going on in my head. It was a losing battle. This bully just got meaner and louder the more I fought it. So, I gave in. I let the bully have its way. I let that inner dialogue of toxicity run rampant. When it said this is all bullshit, I was fool to try listening to my intuition, and I’m delusional that this is even real, I agreed it might be right.
Then a miracle occurred.
It was silent. The toxic bully had nothing to fight with. When I agreed it was probably right and I was a fool to listen to my intuition or even think I could be psychic at all, it had nothing left to say. Silence. My mind settled, and I could do as I wished without torment. Once I agreed with the toxic thoughts, I could get on with my experiment in peace. All it wanted was a bit of attention.
Even more than power or control, all the ego wants is attention.
Therefore, I learned to listen to my doubts, my toxic thoughts, and my old childhood wounds. After listening, I agreed they are valid, and I will consider them. Then I would mentally state, “Just for today I will listen to my intuition.”
With that statement, the doubts would be silent so I could pay attention to the messages that float up from the unconscious. Those subtle gifts came into conscious awareness easier, always sharing the truth, always right, and always through peace.
I learned that when it truly is an intuitive hit, nudge, or insight, it is always right. I also noticed it is always subtle, not attached to any urgency or demanding energy. It could come in many forms. It can be an image in the inner eye, a thought out of the blue, a feeling something is needed, or a word in the mind. However it comes, it is always gentle. When conjured from the wounded ego, it has an urgency or demanding energy that is like a guess and is just as accurate as guessing the lotto numbers. When it is from the ego and not the intuition, then it is always wrong.
This knowledge gave me the power to follow my intuition with confidence. Then my intuition became more active and accurate. I think of it as my navigation system, telling me which way to go, what is needed, and when to act. It is a predictor and a reminder. It also never has an urgent or fearful energy behind it.
After learning this and working with my intuition over time, I navigated my life differently and, in quiet ways, the fresh path I was forging became clear. I found my passion, awakened a deeper understanding of myself, and navigated my doubts with ease.
I started this way and built upon it. I am now a professional psychic with great accuracy. But it started just as I stated above. Once I listened to those soft nudges and gave my doubts the attention they craved, I learned how to access my intuition on purpose so that I could help others. Now I will teach you all I have learned. I know how to grow the gifts we are all born with. I started with just as much psychic power as you have.
Try my experiment. Make a deal with yourself. Just for today. Just for today, follow those subtle nudges and see what happens. When doubts show up, acknowledge, and agree with them, then listen to your nudges, anyway. See if it changes things. Then do it again tomorrow. Repeat and continue daily until it changes things.
Your doubts will always have plenty to tell you. Just listen, agree, and then watch how the quiet thoughts show up.
Janet Kadow is a spiritual teacher, writer, and professional psychic dedicated to teaching all who wish to know how to walk a spiritual path with integrity using the gifts we are born with.
You can contact Janet at 619.866.4405, janet@janetkadow.com, www.janetkadow.com
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